Reasons to Shine

I loved today, because the weather was beautiful! It is getting cold, and that means its time for a new season!

This school year is all about change! I am actually doing my homework this year, and putting that before social engagements (which anyone that knows me...knows I always pick having fun before school) NOT this year! I just don't want to fail any classes and have to come back next year! that would be awful!!

I love the weekends! I have had so much fun with my friends this week! I love love my friends :) I keep forgetting to take pictures though! normally I love too, guess I am too busy having fun to take pics! I just got back from church, and I totally feel inspired! I LOVE when a good sermon makes you want to change your heart follow God's plan for you more! I think that's the way church should be! tonight we learned about dreams, and how we should strive for the best...and never give up! I started thinking about my dreams, and I tried to identify what is most important! I dream of becoming a personal trainer, and I really want to help people improve their self-image and help them alter their lifestyles! and I want a family, and to be a wonderful wife and a loving mommy!! but then I started thinking about God's purpose for me, and how I can apply that to my life. I have to follow His will for me! I think He wants me to use the gifts He has bestowed upon me to help others! and I want to do that! the pastor said there are five necessary things you need to for dreams to become reality! lets see if I remember them....

first day of school was fun! I love my classes, and I have lots of friends in them! I still miss my best friend, Annie, there is an emptiness without her here! my other best friend, Erica, is married now! I am so happy for her, she looked gorgeous. they are truly in love! it's so wonderful and happy to see! true love is such a beautiful thing to witness! I had a scrimmage tonight for soccer! it wasn't spectacular. our first touch was off, and we were tired from a million two-a-days! we still won, but it wasn't attractive soccer! I took a five hour energy shot before, and it just made me thirsty! I also felt jittery, but not more energetic. unless I can start playing soccer with a camelback attached, I am done with those things! they make you parched! new beginnings have the potential to be great, it's all about how you look at it! new school year...I don't want to be in Arkansas or at JBU...at all. but I am excited for this year. I hope it is my best yet! I'll be 22, and that's my soccer number, and my favorite number that exists!

Summer is done! I am so sad! summer is my favorite time of the year! I love doing what I want to do! I personally am not a fan of the whole academic thing! I love summer because I always have ambitions of change. I enjoy taking fourth months to become a better person inside and out! now, as I have strived to be a better person this whole summer, I will be now face challenges this school year, and I hope I conquer them! at church Sunday the speaker said, you must surrender your whole life to God, not just parts of it. My whole life I feel like I haven't been 100% vulnerable, and I haven't fully submitted my life to Him. It's a slow process of giving your whole heart to Him, and that's what I am doing now. I want my words to represent Him, I want my actions to be a reflection, and I want my thoughts to make Him happy! Besides getting caught up in soccer, and school, and maintaining strong friendship, I want that to be my focus! and with Him, I can handle the mundane classes, and brutal practices! I hope though my friends and family hold me accountable by my actions! I know I don't want to go back to school, but I am going to try to make it a great year! and then I outta here! finally!!!

Okay, I promise to make this a happier post, so sorry about the last one! I start school in less than a week! I cannot wait to be done!!! but I really want to enjoy my last year! I was looking at pictures, I have changed so much since last summer! last summer my hair was ten inches longer... then 0n the fateful day of August 24 2009....I chopped it off! so sad. also, my diet consisted ONLY of chocolate here is a pic I found....just one of my past lunches captured on film. It is a cappuccino chunky chocolate fancy ice cream sundae, with extra extra peanut butter, extra extra hot fudge, extra caramel, a fudge brownie underneath, the chocolate that freezes when it touches ice cream, and of course whipped cream! a total of 3000 calories! that used to be norm for me, now I resist and try so hard to not relapse! oh memories. I was about half way through when this picture was taken