busy!

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I should be studying for my lab final test! however! I am just not focusing very well right now! my first semester of my last year is drawing to a close! I am so happy!!! One whole month of Christmas break sounds fabulous!!!!!! I sprained my ankle 3 days before my last game of my life! that happened about 3 weeks ago, but I still can't really run! it's weird not working out..thats always been a huge part of my life! I have done some things, but it's not the same! I was sad when it happened because I couldn't play my last game 100%, but I know things happen for a reason. It showed me that we cannot anticipate the future, and it also reminded me to not get angry at God when bad stuff happens. and it taught me that soccer has always been a big part of my life, but it isn't my identity! and it reminded me to be tough! and also, I think facing adversity often makes you stronger! you succeed if you don't face challenges!


today in class I had an epiphany! My Evangelical Theology teacher said something along these lines...Some people are so loving, and they want to show the people they care about their love. These people go above and beyond. However, these people are often taken advantage of. They desire so badly to show their love, but they often are the ones that feel lonely and taken for granted."
I feel like I am a loving person, I enjoy doing things for others, and encouraging others. But sometimes I feel exhausted from trying so hard to please and bring joy to others. Sometimes I feel taken advantage of. Not so much these days because I am more assertive than I used to be. My teacher then said Jesus always shows love, but is often deserted. He shows love unconditionally, and I often neglect Him. I often forget to thank Him for what He has done for me. I often am too busy for Him. I sometimes just forget about him.
I know what it feels like when I do something kind for someone, and they don't acknowledge it..its similar with God. No matter what we do, His love is everlasting. No love can compare to His. So when I feel sad when I don't feel love reciprocated back, I need to remember that God is always sending His love, even when I forget to love Him back! interesting!

Friday was our Dance at school! it was super fun!! It was Pride and Predjudice themed so we did those kinda dances! Here are some pics from the dance!


I got to talk to annie today!! She is home from Africa!!! we talked on the phone for two hours, and we are still not caught up!! I am gonna see her next week! we are going to go to the Plaza in Kansas City! I am so stoked!!!



Okay finally! This is for you Susan Greathouse!!! this picture was taken before you went to Ireland!! I miss you a lot! you are the reason I have a blog!! you will be home soon and I can't wait to see you!!!!


Winter doldrums meets JOY!

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Hiiiii! it's almost Christmas time! which is my FAVORITE time of the year! however, I realized I do not actually like winter weather! well...I like snow, but just bitter cold. uhhhh-no thanks! I love summer time! going swimming everyday, working out in the brisk mornings, or running in the middle of the day with the intense sun! or going on a late night bike ride when it's still warm and its dark until 10 pm! now...it gets dark at 5:00 pm! omg! that leaves no time for fun! and I don't think cold is romantic weather! and you can't wear fun party dresses because you have to mask them with big cumbersome jackets! and FINALS are during winter! I have 6 papers due this week! Even though I do not like this bitterly cold weather...I will have JOY! because Christ's joy runs through me always! not just when the weather is nice!! Joy can't be situational! So bring on the frigid weather, and dry hair and pale skin....weeeeeee!

okay, so I haven't been online shopping except for christmas presents lately..because I am working on improvement!! but I DID just make a coooooool purchase! one of my fav tv shows, pretty little liars has the best fashion! I saw this owlita pheasent earring on the show and was instantly captivated! chhhhheck it out!


I think it's awesome! Mine looks a little different though! more vibrant!

last night was the Christmas parade! JBU had an athlete float, so I walked in it!! It was soooo fun! this is a picture from last year's parade! I was with my TWO most fav people in the world! erica and annie!!!

My hair is so much longer now!! Annie wasn't at the parade because she is in Africa!! but I think she gets back today!! I am so excited, I have missed her so much! the wonderful thing about our friendship is that distance does not have an impact on our friendship! same with Erica, she lives in Russelville now..but we are still just as close as we were when we became best friends in middle school! I love her so much! I have known her longer than any of my friends, and I hope we stay close forever!!!! that's the thing about genuine friendships..if you want them to last they will! but it takes effort from both parties! I know there are people in my life that I will know forever! I hope so anyways :) I am blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life!!

okay, some of my favorite people in the whole wide world are the little girls I coach!!!!! they mean so much to me!! I have done private lessons for about 15 different girls, and each one is unique, and has different talents. right now, I am coaching five girls several days a week, and on the weekends they compete in 3v3 tournaments! Our team name is Kidd's Kids!! Yesterday, they competed in a tournament and got second place!! I was so proud of them!! I feel more joy coaching them then I ever did playing!! I love seeing them play with passion, and it makes me happy when they encourage one another, and I love how coachable they are! I hope I have a little girl that is just like them!! okay, here is a picture of us at the tournament!




okay, last thing! I love my momma!!! we have been watching movies together today, and I was just thinking I am really glad I have her as my mom! I am very thankful for her, and sometimes I don't think I do a good enough job conveying how grateful I am for her! Her love for her family is the absolute best depiction of Christ's love that I have ever seen!! to me, love is when you would do anything for the one you love, and you always put that person before yourself. and when they are sad or when they are hurting, you are too! and when you love someone, just being in their presence is enough! Those are just a few elements of love, there is a lot more to it...but I think those things are imperative parts of love! here's my mom! and that's Renee Buckminster! I love her too, she is one of my mom's best friends, and I think of her as a great friend too!! I look up to her so much! I want to be like my mom and Renee when I grow up!





Today

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for me, deep contemplation comes most naturally late at night. Can't sleep right now, and I am thinking what is wrong with my life? I think I have been going through the motions a bit too much. Since soccer has ended, I have had this feeling that I could coast by. stay up as late as I want because I don't "need" energy for soccer, put off school work because without soccer I have more "free time", wasting my time doing pointless things, when I could be productive. I've had this feeling, no need to eat health soccer is over, I don't have to work out, I am not trying to stay in shape for anything...yes, I guess I am just making the transition, but tonight it hit me. I do not want to be mediocre, I want to be great. Not because of my own good deeds, but because of God. I don't want to take what He has granted me and waste it. I don't want to be anything less than what He wants from me. Yes, there will be times I fail, like now...but I want to emerge stronger than before I fell. I can't let stupid distractions take over, I need to keep my focus. because when my focus is Christ, then everything else falls into place correctly. when I let other things take over, the light in me quickly dims. today was a good reality check. being impetuous got me again, and it had me thinking, why? why am I hasty? I think its because I love fun, I love excitement, I love happiness. However, cheap fun and happiness can come quickly...but the fun and excitement that comes from Christ is real...temporary fun cannot compare to eternal life. therefore, my heart must be patient. I must not waste my time on foolish things. I need to keep my priorities right. my judgement gets clouded sometimes, but thank goodness its only temporary. I think today is a good day for change. today my focus will be on Christ, I will not get lazy, I will not become apathetic. I will have passion, determination, and strength to conquer anything. I want to do my best in everything I attempt... humbling experiences are often necessary for growth. there were no exclamation marks in this entry, so sorry...maybe I am feeling serious, but I think one exclamation mark is due so here it goes!!!!! okay maybe more than one was needed!

also, I love my cousin katie paige!! she is so wonderful, and she is great to talk to! even though we live hundreds of miles away, she is close in my heart and I will love her always!!!! okay here is us on christmas last year!! i can't wait until I get to see her! just threeeeeee more weeks!!!!!




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hiiiiii!! look at me, two posts in one week! it's me again!!
we finished number 2 in conference! weeeeeeee I wish we would have got second, but it's okay because we all grew a lot during the season! Our first game in the conference tournament is Saturday! so hopefully it will go great! we have three girls that tore their ACL's! it's so sad! I feel so bad for them because I know how they feel :( it was one of the hardest times in my life, but I grew so much during that time....I am glad it happened! one of my favorite places in the world is 3dpt, and I went there for my rehab! 3dpt is not only a physical therapy place, but it also targets fitness. I learned how to work out better, and really began enjoying it! I loved the positive atmosphere, and I loved encouraging other people that working out or getting treatment! I realized that I wanted to become a personal trainer...because I love people, I love working out, and I love sharing what I have learned about fitness and training!!!! so I think God put that in my path so I would realize his plan for me!! at the time of my injury I was an education major...but after that experience I switched to exercise studies ..and I am soooo very happy now!!!!! I have never been more passionate about anything, and I am so excited to graduate so I can start my career!! sooo I know the girls that tore their ACL's will learn a lot, and I think God had this happen for a reason. I know they will struggle, but I hope they also find hope...and success rehabing!

okay that's whats on my mind today!! peace and love!

Sorry for the Delay.

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Hey!!! sorry its been a while! guess I have been too busy living life instead of writing about it! well, I have my last official soccer game tomorrow!! we will finish in second place if we win! Then we have the SAC tournament and if we win that...Nationals BABY! I think if we make it to nationals ...I think my team and I should make NATIONALS 2010 shirts!!! maybe a beautiful color combo like....hot pink and baby blue...or neon yellow and purple...or just something crazy and bright!! it's been a good season, I def lost interest at one point, and then my desire was reignited...but it was a rather tumultuous journey! Now its coming to a close. I will miss my friendships, I will miss racing defenders to the balls, taking shots, making passes, and pushing people out of the way to get the ball. I will miss conditioning and working out with goals in mind. after soccer is over, I will work out for pure enjoyment...I think I will stay in shape, but it will be different..I think I will forsake my thunder-thighs, and be more toned with less muscle.
I am very thankful for my friendships this year!! of course my best friends Erica and Annie are awesome, and my cousin, Katie, is the bomb! but I am also very thankful for other friendships that have grown stronger this year! A few that actually live in the same town as me.... My friend Cam has been awesome, we think a lot alike, but we are totally different. she always makes me laugh! she is the funniest person I know! and I think she is very cool, she has her own style which I really admire! I also have my own style.... but we are totally different! Emily is great too! she loves Halloween, and it cracks me up! she is one of the smartest people I know! and she hates being stereotyped as a blonde soccer player. she is so much deeper than that. she has such a complex mind that makes her so interesting! she is so unpredictable, yet I understand her completely! Heather is my closest friend that doesn't play soccer. we don't hang out as often because we are both busy, but when we get together we can talk for hours!! we are so girly together always getting our nails done, going shopping, hot tubbing, and having girl talk! she has amazing style and is an artist. her eye make up is a work of art! she is super fun, and we love being together! everyone on my soccer team is awesome, I think thats what I will miss most about it ending. because I love each one of them so much. Ashleigh, my old roommate is so fun, she is also really hilarious, and one of the most talented people I know! she can do hair, make up, cook/bake the most amazing things, and do a million other weird but super cool things. she is really goofy, but can also be very serious. I think she is brilliant as well. I am very thankful for Camille because she was my work out partner this summer and we encouraged each other a lot. we are both really ambitious and its refreshing to be around someone that is also really goal-oriented. she is often misunderstood because I think she is one of the sweetest people I know and has a good heart. needless to say, I love and adore my friends...and I am so appreciative of them!! God puts people in your life for a reason!!!!! and each of my friends are different and I don't think they would all be friends with each other, but they each bring something special into my life!

oh! I am reading a book called.. CRAZY LOVE....recommended by my assistant coach and friend, Michaela Brannan! I am LOVING it...it's totally reminding me how selfish I am! my only purpose is to love God and spread His love!!! life gets so complicated and I inflict unnecessary stress upon myself. I just need to glorify God. I am still in the beginning of it..but I will write more about it on my next entry!

finally, I came to a realization...I replaced being a chocoholic.....with....online shopping!!! i love it!! I think I am always waiting on something I ordered in the mail. as soon as I receive my package..I get online to buy something else! currently I am waiting in the mail for....shampoo/conditioner, lip gloss, a sweater, boots, and I think thats all. yep. I am addicted. I decided tonight its bad. I need to fix it. i need to save money...not be so frivolous! it's also selfish because its stuff I don't need, and I just talked about how I am selfish and thats bad.... well I admitted my guilt and I will being working to alleviate my problem.

okay, I am done! peace and love!!

far away

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I loved today, because the weather was beautiful! It is getting cold, and that means its time for a new season!

I had a blast at Erica's bridal shower this weekend! She is already married, but has her actual ceremony is in less than a month!!! I stayed at her duplex, and it's so cute! but it occurred to me today that we won't get to have slumber parties with just anymore, and when she comes to visit it just won't be the same.
My cousin, Katie, is getting married too! I am her maid of honor! I can't wait to see her at Christmas, it will be our last time together before she gets married...so it won't be the same either! we always stay up late, and watch movies, and just have so much fun!

I already really miss Erica because I won't get to see her for a long time! and I miss my cousin, Katie! and I miss Annie, I haven't seen her since July, and she is leaving for Africa in just a few days! She will be doing a medical missions trip! I am so excited for her!!! and I miss my dad and brother.
So many people I feel so close to..are far away. I miss them all so much! but I am thankful for my brother, sister-in-law, momma, the little girls I coach, the people at 3DPT, and all my other great friends who I DO get to see each day! and I love them all so much! I want to make sure I do a great job showing them my love and thankfulness! sometimes we forget to appreciate the special things we do have, when we are consumed by missing what's not around.

Halo by Beyonce is my favorite song today, it's just so beautiful...

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away


From Caramel to Chocolate

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This school year is all about change! I am actually doing my homework this year, and putting that before social engagements (which anyone that knows me...knows I always pick having fun before school) NOT this year! I just don't want to fail any classes and have to come back next year! that would be awful!!

Soccer is going great! my knee feels amazing and I am having so much fun! my feet hurt from wearing high heels though...I probably shouldn't wear them, but they are so dang cute!

I dyed my hair chocolate brown!! I like it...got super tired of those sunny highlights! summer is over! I think it was caramel brown, before....so I call it chocolate now! I will put up a picture later :)


it's blurry because it's on my iphone!! but you get the point.....chocolate!!!!!!
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